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Fail but happiness prevails

May 21, 2012

I promised some time ago that my next post would be about something completely scarey for me to talk about as a way of  ” DEALING” with IT, well not gonna happen. I intentionally stopped writing BECAUSE I couldn’t, or wont deal with it. So here’s my official apology for wasting your time waiting to hear of the “THING” that torments me in my sleep! (complete over-dramatization) One day I will write about it, it wont be today nor in the very near future.

Pantiless version???

November 29, 2011

OK, so usually around this time of year someone in my CRAZY family will start an Email updating everyone on current family events or summary of their year. It really is a great way to keep in touch, especially for those not on Facebook or twitter: The following is from my cousin Robert, who by far is the most hilarious of us all.

I hope this email finds you alive and well. Life has been so unbelievably complicated and fast paced I really don’t have time to live it much less share it. I assume all of yours have been similar as I have not heard from you since Eve was doing Adam.

I will give you a quick movie trailer like view of the recent past.

Mary: “Robert I have given the Manor away because no one will help me.” Me:” Are you crazy?” Criminals everywhere, fights, crazy crazy crazy.

Mountain House  Mountain House 2  Mountain house 1 revisited and added on to. Obscene amount of money spent. Tornado at personal Home. Not enough money to rebuild because of money in mountains

Stock market busts. 2 of them. both due to fraud. One is in class action. The other not yet. Possibly never.

Fraud at Manor. Cash partners brought in. More cash spent that could make personal house livable.

Teenage party at wrecked home while cats away. Let friends sleep in cats bed. Theft, police, lying, Crying, more lying, arguing, punishment, alot more crying. A bit more lying.

Mountain Island house (Rosella) turned into vacation rental. Huge success. Summer tornado hits there. Damage not that bad.

Hot tub restored to original condition. Boats everywhere. None of them run.

Drug diet tried and failed. Still think it could have worked. Life too crazy to follow through.

Look like troll and am going to have to accept.  Waaaa!

Luck to you and yours.

Bob

I love Robert, he is always good for a laugh! This was my response:

I should just go ahead and give you guys just two perspectives of the last year of my life. Sorry, couldn’t decide which of my personalities should respond to this email.

Disney Version:
So, Austin is a Senior this year and that makes me cry all the time. He is so precious and wonderful (insert sunshine) and growing up too fast. Wants to be an Ophthalmologist which means Med school, woo hoo. His high school soccer team made conference champions and is currently playing for the state title. WOO HOO GO EAST!!! Ciera is a freshman this year, she is also my best friend, (insert cupcakes) we get along great most days. She is super duper funny and intelligent, she is having a little trouble in Algebra but she is getting tutoring and hopefully will bring up the grade. (AWE unicorns) Logan is the light of my day, (KITTENS) smarter than he should be, smarter than EVERYONE in the house maybe even the world! Also he is a great soccer player, we had a great season this year. Mikey and I live next door to one another, the kids go back and forth and we are friends. People think we are crazy, but it works for us!
 Charlie and I are still together and so so in love, (hearts and clouds) it’s been really great, UPs and DOWNs, you all know what I mean. I do truly love him, which is hard to admit too! Kelly and Katherine are still together and he is doing great! I sent Dad to Florida to live with his brother, it was what was best for everyone. Big load off me!

I’m not wearing panties version:
So Austin is a senior which of course means I”M fuckin OLD!!! Which SUCKS!!! He really is a great kid. Never gets into trouble, hell he never goes anywhere EVER! May have to sell my body to pay for med school. Well…………. wouldn’t be the first time.
I stay horny!
Ciera is an awesome TEENAGE girl, who acts to much like me, she can be a BITCH and lets face it, I am blessed that shes still IN school, who needs Algebra anyway! I do love her sense of humor, don’t love her fashion sense!!! We fight like cats and dogs, but she tells me everything, even stuff I don’t want to know!
Have you seen the chest on my man???
Logan is Baby Mikey, he is the Oracle of all knowledge, he will prolly graduate high school in a year or two! Hopefully he will make lots of money so he can take care of his mother when I lose my mind. Which wont be long now!
My sex drive is INSANE right now, why didn’t this happen sooner????
Mike lives next door, the kids love it. Yay, fuckin great! (insert middle finger) He finally stopped making fuck you faces at Charlie.
FINALLY I got rid of the stoner in the basement! YAY for family!!!! Oh and I still can’t tolerate my Mother, gee who knew???
Kelly is engaged, yay Katherines like turning 14 this year, maybe it’s 15. Awe hell I lost track, they’ve been together soooooo long!!!!

Charlie is awesome, the sex is incredible. Like NO OTHER, came close once many many years ago, but this is Mind altering awesomeness and coincidentally its ALL I can think about most days, I feel like a teenage boy. I will never leave him, I cant go a day without him. It’s great and I do truly deeply love him and his awesome body!!!!

Well it’s time to put my panties back on, oh I mean go back to work!!!

Glad to catch up with all of you,
Love and kisses
Marisa

 

This man of mine, wow

My Love and I in the mountains

Naked Mountain Holiday

November 21, 2011

So if you wake up naked in the mountains in a completely secluded location, with your boyfriend. I think you should remain naked as long as possible. Naked coffee making, naked TV. Apparently making bacon naked was pushing my luck, just a bit! Now I have naked grease burn on my naked belly……

Sorry no naked pics with this post

Princess Piddles

November 7, 2011

New addition to under My desk! My Piddle Princess

You know she's cute

You know she' cute as hell!

 

I CUP

October 22, 2011

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This is the screen saver at my  urology Doctors office!!! It took me a minute to get it, then I let out a belly laugh, causing me too pee a little! Hence the reason why I was there!

An unaswered Email

October 13, 2011

In direct relation to the previous post, I am having a little trouble in my current relationship. And I am constantly making comparisons in my head, between the two. Naturally my current relationship isn’t up to par with the old love, the only thing this relationship is in the good on, is the fact that’s we are still together. That AND the AMAZING sex.

So I sent my him a letter, to see if we can fix these issues. It went unanswered for an entire week. Until today, when of course he wanted to argue with me about it…Really really??? I was trying to fix this and you want to argue?????

OK so you be the judge, does this email warrant an argument?

My Love

There are some things I need to express, and you make it really hard for me to talk to you. Sometimes you look at me with that annoyed face or you give me the “are you stupid” look when I am trying to tell you how I feel, like you just cant understand how I could feel this way! Well it doesnt matter how or why I feel this way,  I just do! I keep trying to tell you that something is really really wrong with US and you don’t wanna listen or repair it because you don’t see it, but I do. So here it is.

I know that you love me, but you act differently than you did in the first 6 or 8 months.Maybe I have done something to damage our relationship but Back then I was your entire world, your everything. You would look at me and I could just see it in your eyes. If we were out in public ANYWHERE, you kept one hand on me, at my waist, or in my hand, on my hip or just wrapped up in your arms. You were affectionate, from the first night, and you were happy.You would look at me sometimes and make me melt or get me all hot and bothered. Maybe I was so happy that I mis interpreted your actions, maybe I just wanted you to be all of these things and thats not the real you. It seems that Now you rarely ever touch me and almost never make eye contact anymore. You rarely ever smile anymore either, you almost always are cold,  distant, or emotionless. You are supportive and you work hard and we have great chemistry when its there, but now I am questioning if that is enough? Can we sustain a relationship like this? I don’t think we can.

I need affection, I crave it. I want our life together to be because we couldn’t possibly live without one another, not because we are stuck together. Not because we just settled into this comfortable pattern and decided it would require to much effort to do anything else. That really is what it feels like to me. There was no excitement in your eyes when I brought up the option of us living together. NONE whatsoever! No smile, no happiness. I don’t want that, I want someone who WANTS to spend every waking moment with me and doesn’t mind saying so. I want the romance and fire. When we had only been dating for a few months you made a comment while we were vegging in bed , you said you would love it if I would be “Mrs Harte” one day, you had passion in your eyes and fire in your heart it was romantic and wonderful.  And now it’s “Hey Honey can I buy you a ring?”  Well I need the other guy back!
I love you!

So here’s the song for today: Since it really has been playing over and over in my head.

 

lost love (vomited in my mouth a little while writing this)

October 11, 2011

There’s a new song playing over and over again on the radio, it is painful to your heart if Love has ever turned it’s back on you. Adele’s someone like you! If you have lost a love that you fear you will never find again then this is one of those songs that will immobilize your brain and make you reminisce about that wonderful person whom has left you for another and permanently scared your soul. Bitter?? Who me??? NEVER???

I did feel this way once upon a time, I loved with everything I had, he was inside my head and inside my heart 24/7. I have done good with moving on, and he whom shall never be named has also. I thought it was good, THOUGHT being the key word. This song brought back a torrid love affair to the forefront of my mind and now it is like reliving the pain ALL over again. And yet I sing it LOUD as if it’s a badge of courage or a testament that I too will feel the hurt instead. Gee thanks ADELE……….

******ALL THIS PAIN LEAD ME TO THE ARMS OF “THE BOYFRIEND” AND FOR THAT I AM THANKFUL EVERYDAY*******

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